Tuesday, December 31, 2013

I Am The Widow

This poem is dedicated to Kimberly Richardson. Kimberly is the President of, “Widows of Opportunity”, in Columbia, South Carolina.  After losing her own husband she has become a blessing to many other widows in her community, around the country and even around the world.  My heart is moved by her organization and I hope that your heart will be equally as moved. Please check out Kimberly and her organization at www.widowsofopportunity.com

I Am The Widow

I am the Widow
I go back to Black
Unfortunately, my Husband won’t be coming back
James 1:27 says, care is on the way from Heaven
My bills are long, now that my man is gone
My children’s laughter is fading faster and faster

Who knows what to do with his clothes?
They say, “Girl, you have got to let go!”
But I don’t want to let go, because I’m just not ready
The vows at the church said, “For better or worse”.
How come no one said, “It might be cut short and just end”.
The will of the Father can cut like a knife

Tomorrow might be better right?
I hear his voice in my head and that makes me smile
He says, “Baby, these ribs are like wood to a fire”
I’ll never have the chance to cook for him again
So all I do now is reach for my pen
I speak to my diary that never talks back

For, I am the widow and I go back to Black

Much Luv, 

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Monday, December 30, 2013

She Speaks

She Speaks

Sitting here thinking about all the red flags you said went up
My flags were always white
Loving you caused me so much pain
Today I just feel meh
Meh in the way that I lost
I was chasing you
You were chasing her
She was chasing you
But when I turned around, I realized that no one was chasing me

From cereal to heartache
Scattered pieces to dry tear ducts
Promises of unbroken friendship
Lies of undeniable hatred
The thin lines
There’s a win to every lose
The Lessons were worth the pain
The Joy always outweighed the Rain
I’m still crazy and you’re still out of your mind
The irony of my all

No part for me in, “Moody’s Mood for Love”.
Can you really lose what you never had?
Best thing…
Bright Lights only know light, even when it’s dark
I release you from my heart in love & light
The key to my heart wasn’t in your locket
For now, I’ll put it back in my safe box for safe keeping
I wish you lifelong happiness
A new white chapter is beginning for you
Mine is still unwritten

Much Luv, 

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Saturday, December 14, 2013

I Gave You All My Ugly

Two years ago, I gave you all my ugly
You gave me all your ugly too
I wasted all my pretty
I wanted to heal you in the place where you stored past hurt
But I was too broken to be of any help
Where do broken hearts go?

To Heaven or Hell
If they walk around wounded they go where I did
I burned in the Flames

Then someone called my name
I looked back because I thought it was you
The light was so bright that I couldn’t make out the face

He stepped out boldly
His robe was so white that I had to turn away
That’s when he grabbed me and wiped all the soot away
When he opened his arms, doves flew out all sorts of ways
He gave me hug and walked me to the table

He knew me by my name
He said, “All your ugly has passed away”.
At the table he showed me a mirror
At first I saw your face

He told me that I was looking for a Savior but that you were not the Way
I couldn’t be with you because he hadn’t worked on me
And then I looked again but this time I saw Me
I violated your trust but it allowed me to regain His

He taught me a new obedience and I instantly felt like a kid
His love for me extends from His Kingdom to my world
As the soot began to fade I saw my pretty face

As the King ate a meal with me he explained that my brokenness was gone
And that the memories we created were sort of like a Love Song
He said that because neither of us was ready in his eyes we’re still together apart
In all our mess and chaos, only He could offer us a new start
I told him that you’ve moved on to a girl with style and grace

He said, “My child, the only thing I want you to focus on is that your ugliness has been erased”.
I’m so blessed
That’s all that I could manage to say
He saved me before death entrapped me

Proverbs 31

White Candle

The pages opened and he showed me
I heard the faint sound of a guitar playing behind and a lovely melody in the wind
“Her Husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life.
She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life”.

With soot on my hands and face
I finally understood my Light & His Grace
He Saved Me at that moment
Right there, with all my soot from the flames, he showed me one page

He walked me back to my world and said
“My Promises are true”
“Love will be a Battle”
“I Love Your Husband more than you do”
“Your union will survive because it is my Will for both of you”

1 Corinthians 13
“Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance”
I’m not the one that he believes in
I’m trying to let him go, trying to turn the page
His Happiness means the world to me even though he might not think so
Do broken hearts make their way back?

Revelation 3
“I know all the things you do, and I have opened a door for you that no one can close
You have little strength, yet you obeyed my word and did not deny me”.
He gave me another hug with his glorious white rob on
He never seemed worried or concerned about all the soot that I had on

In His silence, I knew that I would see Him again
When He calls me back Home to Heaven
For now, I’ll return to my world but this time without my ugly

Praise the Lord

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