I Am The Widow

This poem is dedicated to Kimberly Richardson. Kimberly is the President of, “Widows of Opportunity”, in Columbia, South Carolina.  After losing her own husband she has become a blessing to many other widows in her community, around the country and even around the world.  My heart is moved by her organization and I hope that your heart will be equally as moved. Please check out Kimberly and her organization at www.widowsofopportunity.com

I Am The Widow

I am the Widow

I go back to Black

Unfortunately, my Husband won’t be coming back

James 1:27 says, care is on the way from Heaven

My bills are long, now that my man is gone

My children’s laughter is fading faster and faster

Who knows what to do with his clothes?

They say, “Girl, you have got to let go!”

But I don’t want to let go, because I’m just not ready

The vows at the church said, “For better or worse”.

How come no one said, “It might be cut short and just end”.

The will of the Father can cut like a knife

Tomorrow might be better right?

I hear his voice in my head and that makes me smile

He says, “Baby, these ribs are like wood to a fire”

I’ll never have the chance to cook for him again

So all I do now is reach for my pen

I speak to my diary that never talks back

For, I am the widow and I go back to Black

Much Luv, 

She Speaks

She Speaks

Sitting here thinking about all the red flags you said went up

My flags were always white

Loving you caused me so much pain

Apologies

Today I just feel meh

Meh in the way that I lost

I was chasing you

You were chasing her

She was chasing you

But when I turned around, I realized that no one was chasing me

From cereal to heartache

Scattered pieces to dry tear ducts

Promises of unbroken friendship

Lies of undeniable hatred

The thin lines

There’s a win to every lose

The Lessons were worth the pain

The Joy always outweighed the Rain

I’m still crazy and you’re still out of your mind

The irony of my all

No part for me in, “Moody’s Mood for Love”.

Can you really lose what you never had?

Best thing…

Bright Lights only know light, even when it’s dark

I release you from my heart in love & light

The key to my heart wasn’t in your locket

For now, I’ll put it back in my safe box for safe keeping

I wish you lifelong happiness

A new white chapter is beginning for you

Mine is still unwritten

Much Luv, 

I Gave You All My Ugly

Two years ago, I gave you all my ugly

You gave me all your ugly too

I wasted all my pretty

I wanted to heal you in the place where you stored past hurt

But I was too broken to be of any help

Where do broken hearts go?

To Heaven or Hell

If they walk around wounded they go where I did

I burned in the Flames

Then someone called my name

I looked back because I thought it was you

The light was so bright that I couldn’t make out the face

He stepped out boldly

His robe was so white that I had to turn away

That’s when he grabbed me and wiped all the soot away

When he opened his arms, doves flew out all sorts of ways

He gave me hug and walked me to the table

He knew me by my name

He said, “All your ugly has passed away”.

At the table he showed me a mirror

At first I saw your face

He told me that I was looking for a Savior but that you were not the Way

I couldn’t be with you because he hadn’t worked on me

And then I looked again but this time I saw Me

I violated your trust but it allowed me to regain His

He taught me a new obedience and I instantly felt like a kid

His love for me extends from His Kingdom to my world

As the soot began to fade I saw my pretty face

As the King ate a meal with me he explained that my brokenness was gone

And that the memories we created were sort of like a Love Song

He said that because neither of us was ready in his eyes we’re still together apart

In all our mess and chaos, only He could offer us a new start

I told him that you’ve moved on to a girl with style and grace

He said, “My child, the only thing I want you to focus on is that your ugliness has been erased”.

I’m so blessed

That’s all that I could manage to say

He saved me before death entrapped me

Proverbs 31

White Candle

The pages opened and he showed me

I heard the faint sound of a guitar playing behind and a lovely melody in the wind

“Her Husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life.

She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life”.

With soot on my hands and face

I finally understood my Light & His Grace

He Saved Me at that moment

Right there, with all my soot from the flames, he showed me one page

He walked me back to my world and said

“My Promises are true”

“Love will be a Battle”

“I Love Your Husband more than you do”

“Your union will survive because it is my Will for both of you”

1 Corinthians 13

“Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance”

I’m not the one that he believes in

I’m trying to let him go, trying to turn the page

His Happiness means the world to me even though he might not think so

Do broken hearts make their way back?

Revelation 3

“I know all the things you do, and I have opened a door for you that no one can close

You have little strength, yet you obeyed my word and did not deny me”.

He gave me another hug with his glorious white rob on

He never seemed worried or concerned about all the soot that I had on

In His silence, I knew that I would see Him again

When He calls me back Home to Heaven

For now, I’ll return to my world but this time without my ugly

Praise the Lord