This article is not
for the squeamish.
As of late, I’ve been
working on an article called, "The Girl I Used to Hate". It's a pretty
funny fitness article that circulates some of the feelings we women have toward
one another at the gym. The article highlights the amazing physical change that
my body has gone through since writing my, “Fall Fitness Challenge”, back in
September. As I was writing and organizing
the photography for this new article a shift occurred within me; a shift that
immediately grieved my heart. I was
listening to Beyonce’s song called, “Pretty Hurts”, off of her new self-titled
album and I was inspired. It took months before I began to see any physical
change to my body in the gym and there were many instances that I wanted to
give up. I quickly learned that the difference between winners and losers is
simply that winners never quit! The only
problem with this was some days I wondered what exactly was I even striving
for…Perfection? I thought, “Perhaps”? But what was perfection to me? Was it an
image that the world gave me? Was it a celebrity body or face that walks around
with a glam team? If you’ve had the pleasure of listening to the song that I
mentioned then you already know that Beyonce sums up perfection as the disease
of a nation. We can’t fix things that
need to be fixed within the realm of our souls.
January is a time of year that many women will be sitting at home or in
their offices considering whether or not they’ll be using their tax-refunds toward
plastic surgery. This pierces my heart deeply and maybe because I’ve never had
plastic surgery it’s very unfair for me to comment or to even write this. Womanhood
is a sisterhood that obligates us to encourage, uplift, and support one another.
If we spent more time helping one another to be happy within our flaws we’d
move so much further in sisterhood. I’m
writing this article because I want to remind women that our flaws tell the
story of where we’ve been. Some of the places we’ve been haven’t been pretty
but our flaws reflect that we’ve survived. I also want to say that in the past I’ve worn hair
weaves and I’ve tanned my skin to have a glow that wasn’t naturally there. I know how much pressure this world places on
us to be what it considers to be pretty. I’m even bothered at times when I see y
stretch marks or my laugh lines but self-acceptance is a huge step toward
self-love. I encourage you to comment if anything I say in this article goes
against what your experience with plastic surgery was like. I want this to be
an article of healing not of judgment.
Many of us will hit
what I refer to as the chopping block this winter. It will be a quicker fix than any healthy
diet and/or exercise can offer. South Beach bodies at the snap of a six-week
healing period finger. My heart is so heavy
because we’re living in a world that moves faster than we’re able to keep up
with. Although plastic surgery offers super fast, “Hourglass figure”, results
what we don’t hear much of is how dismembered it leaves a woman’s physical body
post surgery. A body that was once intact even with its excess fat and muffin
top. I have been privileged to see some
of these awful scars behind the scenes from close friends that have decided to
take the plastic surgery plunge. Butcher shops are all that comes to mind when
I’m forced to look. Painful scars in exchange for tiny bikinis on exotic
islands. What has our world come to? How
much does pretty cost? What the hell even constitutes pretty anyway? This week
I was looking at my naked body in the mirror and I was literally ashamed of how
overly critical I was of myself. Let me
just say this, I’ve worked hard to have the body that I have today and in its
naturalness it is scared with stretch marks, dimples and unsightly fat in
storage places that I haven’t been able to work off at the gym. When I’m being
this critical I realize quickly that I’ve allowed public images to suggest what
my naked body should look like to me. Bigger is always seemingly better in some
areas while thinner is the way to go in others; When you lose as much weight as
I have all of the good bigger gets a lot smaller. My breasts are ridiculously smaller, my back
has lost almost 8 inches and my butt is this tiny mold of what it used to be
years ago. Some days, I don’t even know what I’m looking for in the mirror
because in many instances we will never meet anyone else’s standards of what
beauty consists of other than our own. I wonder, “Dear Jesus, what has this
world done to us”? Biogel butt injections, aggressive liposuction, tummy tucks,
smart lipo, breasts implants and Brazilian butt lifts are just some of the
procedures plastic surgeons will be charging patients for this season.
May you’re reading
this right now and you are all too familiar with the pictures here because at
some point you’ve already been on the chopping block. I want to give you the biggest hug and tell
you how pretty you are. Our souls are what need
to have these intense procedures not our bodies. I’m sure deep down you know that you
were absolutely perfect before ever undergoing the procedure. Plastic surgery does nothing for what we can’t
see. I want to encourage you never to go back!
Not because I can make you look perfect but because I want you to let me
convince you that perfection is just an illusion. The pain you feel when the
scars are still there won’t go away by simply having another procedure. I haven’t met an ugly person in my life other
than the way they behaved. We have to heal what’s going on inside before
we can fix anything outside. I want to
specifically blame someone for this but who can I blame? We sign-up for the procedures
and we pay for them. We feel like the tiny
waistlines and bigger busts and butts equate happiness but is this ever the
case? Can undergoing such major surgical
procedures heal our unhappy hearts? Is there a medium or even a healthy balance
between what the world suggests and what we want? If the scars are only
something that we can see when we’re alone wouldn’t that prove that we butcher
our bodies for the outside world? Parents, our daughters need to know how
infallibly gorgeous they are. They need to hear this every single day! When you
think they don’t need to hear it, I promise you that they do. Someone in school
may have told them something contrary to what you’ve been telling them all
along. A boy may have rejected them because their curves don’t make them skinny
enough. Men, you should be telling your women how beautiful they are every
single day. Our souls are so broken and in so much pain. Facial fillers and
botox injections will never be able to fix that. I once looked at aging as a
gift and a blessing from God. I felt like a long life indicated that God was
showing you favor. Now, aging seems like a horrific occurrence that indicates the
withering away of something dying {isn’t dying a significant part of the life
that we’re living}. From magazines to infomercials the fountain of youth seems
impossible to get away from. I fight against this by sharing any horror stories
that I come across just so that the women in my life will be aware that not
every procedure goes according to a doctor’s plan. We all heal differently,
scar differently and respond to medications differently. There is a huge risk in having these
procedures that simply isn’t discussed enough.
Today, God asked me
to remind you of how much he loves you just the way that you are. He asked me to remind you that he is invested
in your soul and not in the outer casing of it. Spend your hard-earned money
this season on something else. Invest in
piece of jewelry, that new car that you’ve been eying or on that
spectacular vacation.
Much Luv,
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